A post in which it is a rough day ahead

I got up early to go on in to the office this morning. These are the songs that are speaking to me right now, that I'm listening to in my car:

Honestly

The beauty that you gave
Has turned upon itself
And all the things you said
Evaporated
Evaporated ...
Was I blind
Deaf and dumb
To the words slipped from your tongue?
Honestly ... honestly ... honestly

Alone in my bed
The things that you said
Go round in my head ... still
It seems to be true
That nothin' I do
Can influence you ...
I tried and tried again
(Don't you know I tried and tried again
to make you listen to me
But everything I said it always seemed to go right through you)
To make you notice me
(I turned myself into a person that I didn't like
But please believe me when I say I know it wasn't right)
But talking to myself
(I never thought that things would
get to be so complicated
I never thought that you and me would end up o frustrated)
Won't catch you attention I see ...
(You'd think that something had to come from all those good intentions
But in the end I needed something more than intervention)

Was I mad?
Was I ... mad?
Foolish me
Foolish ... me
To succumb so easily
To suc...cumb
Easi...ly
So easily
So easily
Honestly... honestly... honestly...

(Alone in my bed
The things that you said
Go round in my head ... still
It seems to be true
That nothin' I do
Can influence you... still)
Fools like me get so easily taken
And fools like me can be so mistaken
Honestly... Honestly... Honestly


The promise that you gave
(Don't you know the promise that you
gave just turned it's back upon me
I stopped believing but you couldn't take the whole thing from me)
Has turned it's back
(I never thought I'd have to pay the price to set you free)
And all you represented
Was just my projection you see...
(You know I never thought I'd ever
live a day without you
And that's the reason why
it makes me sad to think about you
and you know I never thought
I'd make it if you wasn't there
And now I'm tryin' to eject myself
from this despair)

People come
People go...
Never say I "told you so"
Honestly
Everything I know you said
Goin' round inside my head
Never thought I'd see the day
Always got a price to pay
Nothin' that I ever do
Ever seems to get to you

Bitter

Bitter pill to swallow
Slidin' down my throat
Bitter pill to swallow
How it makes me choke
How the hell am I gonna find
Happiness and peace of mind
When I'm losin' all the time?
Yes... bitter

Don't you ever call me
I don't wanna see your face
Don't you dare to call me
Don't darken up this place
What the hell d'ya expect from me?
Emptiness and misery
Took it all away ya see
Yes... bitter

Ooh it means nothin' to me
Ooh you mean nothin' to me
Ooh it means nothin' to me
I paid the price
Sacrificed
Sacrificed...

Bitter pill to swallow
How can I abide
The taste of rage and anger
Burnin' me inside?
How the hell
Will it ever change?
Slowly drivin' me insane
Let me cover up this pain
Yes... bitter

When I'm feelin' low
And there's no place to go
And I'm on my knees
Fallen back down on the floor
And I've had enough
And the situation's tough
And I'm hangin' on
By my nails
Holdin' on...
hopin' I won't fail

This is what reality is made of can't
You see I'm relatively twisted
Laid myself upon you
Underneath your feet
Laid myself upon you
Didn't that look sweet?
Finally the truth has come
Guess I know it all along
Nothing else I could have done
Yes ...Bitter
Bitter
I'm bitter
So bitter

both Annie Lennox, from the Bare album

I have tried really hard not to become bitter over all of this, but I seem to be falling into it despite myself. Maybe I'm more my father's son than I would like to recognize.