Now we were going into hetero central, a bastion of chest-beating machismo with a side order of mild sexism, so I was trying to kind of fly under the radar. I wore cut-off khakis and white t-shirt. When I got there, I met Lee and Joel. Joel was wearing a bright turquoise shorts and a matching v-neck, skin-tight shirt. Well so much for flying under the radar. Now I DO think you should be able to wear whatever you want to a public restaurant, I just also don't think that means it's a great idea to actually do it. But for the most part, it was pretty laid back, and fortunately I am pretty much impervious to disapproving looks. As long as I came out with all my teeth I would be fine. When I had to admonish Lee to get his hands off Joel's nipples, though, I pretty much just cast my lot to the wind and decided to let it play out.
It's unusual for me to feel that I'm somewhere I feel I shouldn't be these days. There is a unique feeling of 'other' for a gay man breaching a 'guy place'. It's hard to describe. It was a feeling I lived with in high school, but it's not a great feeling, and not one I relish. So I don't seek it out, usually. But I had a bunch of friends with me, there were some hot guys there, and there was also the thrill of doing something that wasn't a great idea. I like that. I have to say, it wasn't nearly as weird as I thought it was going to be. I mean, basically it's just a restaurant, right?
Russ came in in a bad mood, and that didn't really improve a whole lot. I ended up getting (mildly) into it with him, and said something about their moving on. It was a bad thing to say at all, and a completely wrong place to say it. Sigh. But overall, it was good to see everyone and to get out. I hadn't been out with them in a while, so it was good that I went. Besides, they are going to some bacon place next week, and I know I won't be going to that.
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